i hate like, everything

it has just occurred to me that half of my entire social circle (and mayhaps the more important half) will evaporate by the weekend due to conscription, which then relegates me to a lifeless existence revolving around the gym, the pool, the bed (alone, sigh), korean dramas (bridget, if you are reading this, i have not started on full house, and my mother plans to steal it and lock it up due to song hae gyo, so you might not get them back, and i am going to rewatch my girl) and actually that's about it. god, i forsee i will miss js, victor, teck heng and tan long and everyon else when my isolation becomes more or less complete, but that leaves christmas to look forward to, which, unreliable sources say, might award them up to four days of freedom so we can go hang out, which is something worth looking forward to is it not, since there are alot of movies i want to watch, i want to eat at sun with moon, and i really really want to kbox.

christmas is slightly more than one week away, which means my solitude might be more easily endured by planning or helping to plan, the class xmas party, which suspiciously is tentatively (there was a nice cadence in the previous phrase, party which suspiciously is tentatively) going to be held at my miniscule apartment and/ or the adjacent community hall which may or may not (may is probably more likely) be already booked by random individuals wishing to celebrate xmas, birthdays, weddings and funerals, so pray and we might be lucky lucky or choose somewhere else.

speaking of my class, it seems like the class blog is not going to make it, given its comatose state since before prelims, and since the a's are over noone is going there to post inspirational sweet let us work had messages, maybe i will post later, but maybe not.

i have gifts for many people, but not everyone, from bangkok, which was nice and not as cheap as i expected, althought the food was dirty and dirt cheap, dirty in a tasty, charming way, you know like the occassional fly here and there to make the whole feel au-then-tic, but mostly harmless. my hotel is calle the Arnoma, and god knows how they come up with hotel names, and incidentally, car names; you know how Toyota Corolla and Proton Saga are both random words but immediately they gve off a car feeling? okay, maybe not, but i am strange. Arnoma is located right in the centre of the city centre literally it is in the center of the tourist map, which means the hotel was flanked by megamalls such as central world plaza which is a vivocity, and siam paragon wherein gucci and louis greet you the minute you enter and walk past the golden fountains. the malls were nice but obviously the night markets were great. there was this bugis streetian place called siam center which is a strange mix of not very cheap clothes and shoes places, dunkin donuts (! i bought some back, dyou know how long i have held onto the damn boxes), more clothes and shoes, trannies, tourists, very tall girls and very short guys, and tuition centers, and i thoroughly enjoyed myself there, my cousin and i went mad bargaining and hurling abuse whenever we saw trannies. much much more enjoyable was the mabunkrong or MBK shopping place, where you can find so much fake goods they amount to cher, which is saying alot is it not. OHH i really regret not bringin enough money. OHH.

actually, there is fifteen minutes to go before discovery travel and living screens the finals of project runway season three, so i will type sommore, i love starhub cable.

after returning home (i saw bobo on the plane!) i went out with the classmates, which was enjoyable. went with js from choa chu kang all the way to paya lebar's post office center to get his jap band tshirts, which, from behind the plastic wrap, looked v nice, so lucky lucky. after which we met bobo and victor, the former who wanted to look for a cap for her who? and found one with hazmi and dione who were at the balcony growing flowers of course, so it turned out that nearly half the class had dinner with each other, which was nice, considering we haven't seen each other since prom. i dunno why but during dinner i became depressed for what turned out to be a stupid and childish reason, so i kinda feel stupid right now, but no matter. victor and jun yuan you two are so lovable :D we met a cockroache at billy bombers, and aysuria promptly kicked up a big fuss which resulted in all of us getting drinks on the table on the house :D shit i forgot that they never served us the ben and jerrys dessert as reflected in the menu, so missed another bitching point. shitty shit shit.

ohh fuck fuck fuck fuck i am going to sorely miss all of you especially victor and js who have now become my arms, eyes, ears, nipples, testicles, and all other body parts that are essential, useful and come in pairs. I WAN GO BEN JEWWY WITH YALL AGAINZZZZ UGHUHGUGHUGHUGHUH

speaking of victor, i was just speaking with victor


vic + just the thought of you. says:
your picture

small, cute and friendly says:
is my display pic gross and suggestive

vic + just the thought of you. says:
again

vic + just the thought of you. says:
again always you and him

vic + just the thought of you. says:
neverme

vic + just the thought of you. says:
NEVER ME

vic + just the thought of you. says:
FINE

small, cute and friendly says:
HHAAHHAHAHA

vic + just the thought of you. says:
i have my bobo YOU CAN GO TO HELL

small, cute and friendly says:
HAHAHAHAHA

small, cute and friendly says:
YOU JEALOUS TESTICLE

vic + just the thought of you. says:
F TO YOU

vic + just the thought of you. says:
I'M BURNING YOUR CHRISTMAS CARD

small, cute and friendly says:
LOOK CLOSELY AT THE PICTURE

vic + just the thought of you. says:
I'LL NEVER LOVE AGAIN

small, cute and friendly says:
LOOK

small, cute and friendly says:
CLOSELY

small, cute and friendly says:
AT

vic + just the thought of you. says:
BOOHOOOHOOOOOO

small, cute and friendly says:
THE

small, cute and friendly says:
PICTURE

small, cute and friendly says:
COUNT TO TEN AND THEN CLOSE YOUR EYES

small, cute and friendly says:
THEN LOOK IN A MIRROR

small, cute and friendly says:
AND YOU WILL SEE YOURSELF!

vic + just the thought of you. says:
OMG

vic + just the thought of you. says:
OMG YOU THINK I'M TRANSPARENT AND UNIMPORTANT

small, cute and friendly says:
NO YOU BITCH

vic + just the thought of you. says:
WELL, TWIN, I HAVE NOTHIN GMORE TO SAY TO YOU

vic + just the thought of you. says:
i know what you meant but i want to rant in jealousy

small, cute and friendly says:
IT IS LIKE WE ARE YOUR REFLECTION

vic + just the thought of you. says:
shush

small, cute and friendly says:
HAHA THIS IS GOING ON MY BLOG

vic + just the thought of you. says:
I LOVE BOBO AND NEITHER OF YOU

vic + just the thought of you. says:
actually that's not true i love js very much

small, cute and friendly says:
UGH YOU SUCK

vic + just the thought of you. says:
=(

vic + just the thought of you. says:
I AM SICK OF BEING SIDELINED

the picture in question is one of js and me in a pseudo-prettyboy-japanese-hentai-yaoi-callboy-advertisement-slutwhore-payus-hireus photo we took during prom, which is leaving victor feeling sidelined. aw, boo hoo HAHA

i am so going to miss the two of you :( when you book out, i invite both of you to my house, which is ten minutes from pasir ris which is where you disembark from the bus from the boat from tekong, since the both of you stay so far away, if your parents are not anxious for you to be home immediately.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

this sucks, i hate like, everything. i wanna go vic's house to watch french and saundersssssssssss

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay bye bye bye bye bye

reeeeeeech