renewal

well, so that's that.

in an attempt to rediscover my previous, more normal life after that little (okay, not very little) lifestyle experiment, i've decided to close down (no longer post in) the other blog and revive this one instead. i really felt like i lost myself after reading through all the previous entries, discovered what a different person i am, and how much i've grown through all those experiences. pictures soon, a bbq and class party later, and to reconcile myself, clubbing a few more times.

i've never felt happier than ever before this past year, nor felt more hurt, abandoned, etc. so here's to a new start, and a slow patching up of life.

in other news, I LOVE FACEBOOK.

meanwhile, I HATE 56KBPS. WHO INVENTED 56KBPS ANYWAY.

furthermore, I HAVE COMMISSIONED!

it just occurred to me that that very tumultous and strange and exciting part of my life happened exactly within the timeframe of SOCC. hmm, very sinister.

so that's to that, and see you later.

imitation of christ, beauty has a price

as mentioned earlier, i only blog in places with broadband access, for reasons that cannot be mentioned in this technologically-advanced era. currently i am at J's house :) hehe and trying to do my a___ work, which sucks since there really is a lot of it to be done, and i haven't even started seeing as to how i've spent this long, blissful bookout, V, A, T stop cringing you morons.

oh i was supposed to talk about my trip to b_____ but then again i might get arrested by close to twelve different authorities, but all i am going to say is that there are too many hills, trees, valleys an insects and too few shops in that part of the world, i think singapore should just buy over b_____ seeing as to how they have too few people and we have too little land.

my level of competency in the english language has been degrading, and V just shut up will you.

oh oh oh but friday until today was completely enjoyable :)))))) i might just create a new blog to talk about this :DDDDDD

okayyyy time to do some real work

reeeeech

what a strange twist

on closer consideration, ____ isn't that bad a person after all! just childlike and clingy. but still.
flying off in a while (wow that sounds super glam, it's to brunei, stupid, the land of bountiful oil and jungles) and i haven't finished packing my CV bag, actually there's hardly anything to pack. but i am The procrastinator (count how many times i have been early when meeting you, and you will understand), waiting for mummy to come back with dinner, and having the warmest fuzziest and most ew convo i've had since ___oland __ hee hee.

i am very happy for now, in contrast with yesterday night, but brunei and the whole of NS looms over me. sigh.

reeeeeech

oh it seems this is the 130th post!

reeeeeeech

as an anniversary gift,

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA.
sorry ays but you did want to see it right. and at least i was decent enough to obscure the important parts, and you are secretly enjoying the attention.

i am v happy and scared at the same time! what is this! the commitmentphobic part of me is catching up! this is bad/good! how dilemmic! is there even such a word!

AHHH

"goodness, what am i supposed to do without you this one week?"

HAHAHA WHEEE i haven't felt like this in very long HAHA


oh this was when i bought the very expensive ice cream cake and very expensive Nigo (abathingape founder) cap for jun yuan during his birthday. i am obviously guilt tripping.
on closer consideration, we must do faith and js some justice. faith's name keeps coming out as fatih.

okay see yall in ten days AHHHHH

reeeeeeech

events of the night

everyone should have a bottle of Skippy's with Chocolate Rice Crisps Pnut Butter at home, it really is an essentia and is supremely delicious. Aside from this, i am now going to launch into the irritating method of referring to oneself in the third person.

Funny Things happen at ____, and if reeech thought that the day before was Funny Enough, then the next day must be Hilarious, in a black comedy manner. dinner was a lovely affair, met up with cheeks and my fellow SO tl at the lovely hong kong cafe at cine, where many a talk once was, where once again we were all convinced that cheeks should go into drama, imitations, channel 8 or stand up comedy. it was great seeing cheeks for real (having bumped into him on occassion) seeing as to how we're supposed to be brothers. i think, half of Interact and especially ys (the very tall one with the large butt, the one who, when at my house for the BBQ, asked casually 'where's cheekin?' and looked for his pictures and assumed that we slept in the same room using the pull-out bed, and asked me if i slept on the top bed or pull out) still think we are. ah, i really need to get back into these forces of wholesomeness again.

on a completely irreverent note, i am resting my peanut butter stick (oh god, that sounded Really Bad) on the RJ year book, which, after flipping through the cheap printing, serves as a reminder of all that was stressful and annoying in an entirely wholesome and forgiving environment, and all that once was and is now gone, just as if they never existed.

after dinner, met up with th and rh who is th's friend, and later js and c who is both js's and th's friend and we all went to the Place Where Funny Things Happen, and it was like the most ultra fun time ever like totally, and rh is way cooler and funner than i expected. then the girls left, where everything took the long road to unfuness. after awhile d____ surfaced with many others, and __ went off with ____ ____ ___ after awhile, that ____. yes but the highlight must have been when cg24 (now gg24) appeared even though cg24 was at ____ yesterday too and everything strange and downwards such that towards the end i ended up feeling like nothing more than a piece of meat, and a complete and total hedon.

where are you, cg23? :(

after ____, th and i went on a Journey To Macdonalds for some light hearted bitching and yummy cancerous cuisine, and then i realize again that maybe i'm just not contented enough, not daring enough, having not the testicles to stand up for what i thought was right and perfect for me, getting swayed by everyone else, not believing in the one is all you need theory, thinking too highly of my friends, thinking them too important, disregarding and severing the one person who, i think, might have rescued me, no matter what everyone else thinks.

oh well, but as usual, too little, too late.

due to th, i have been plagued with a scintillating series of badly-phrased smses, ranging from the coy to the plain bizarre, it is as if i have not enough thoughts to worry about, and there's still the daunting task of brunei and the hazy smoky cloud of enlistment over my head, and certain people are really, really confusing me and getting on my nerves. call it postitive muscle memory.

are you a certain person? :)

reeeeeeeech

yesterdays

yes, i'm back again, this time only because my sister's still hogging the shower for some unfathomable hair-drying reason, and i left the computer and internet (for the uninitiated, 56k requires you to turn-on the internet, it is not automatic) on after falling asleep with my contacts and smoky clothes on, which is why now i have very red but very, very, very pretty eyes (i kid you not, i look like zhang bo zhi now) and very smoky sheets.

since the last entry, things have been eventful and many. actually not, everything revolved around shouting, screaming, stress and planning, many insects, trees and undergrowth, dz getting into O/C/S!, mopeing over cg23 (HAHA I HAVE NO MORALS), mopeing over how i have no more friends, meeting up with Ays on satur/sundays (omg we really are turning into Mark and Amanda, no, not the nice and relatively good-looking couple [good looking, yes, but nice and couple and relatives, no] but the duo from ugly betty which is the like awesomest show in like the universe?) to bitch about ugly people and sometimes (actually most the time) having deep, psychoanalytic conversations about the nature of love, life and the failings of mankind while pretend-shopping for social night. The woman, is now on her way to bangkok, the Land of Cheap Shoes, Bags, Clothes, Everything, and after that on her way to KL where resides More Cheap Shoes, Bags, Clothes, Everything. humph. oh well, at least i get to shop for oil in brunei. optimist optimist. life is so unfair.

speaking of unfairness, it sucks to know that not only teck heng, but js now too has a 8-5 job, which sucks cause now there is another person who can say 'oh! let's meet up on tuesday night which is in the middle of the week because i find no need in booking out since i do that every day at 1700hrs and thus can go for various concerts' (read: gwen stefani and x aguilera [omg how _hey!] and jolin tsai [over already, i think. but still]). i hayyte chuu, i hayyte chu. speaking of js, if you still read this, take care and remember that we all love you and you still have friends who are very nice to you and are willing to listen to your ranting and sorrows, and will treat you to ice cream, if only you would tell them, and take care.

i was going to type more about previous events, but my memory eludes me, and all i can remember was yesterday, so here goes:

1. overslept for no reason other than too much w______, got to town late for no reason to prepare for social night for no reason.

2. went to ays's house to pick her up for social night, and had Rare Encounter with Both of Fainsheng! which was nice. watched a bit of bridget jones, which is Really Funny and is a LCN show. we took a cab and

3. arrived at social night late, and unglamorously (for fainsheng) and gasped at the amount of rj people there, ays and i were seriously going 'ah! its ___!' and 'hi ___! where are you now!' and 'eh ___! dyou know ___ is here too', i mean, is the social circle so tiny? then everything collapsed into a night of furtive bitching and complaining and oh-so-cute fakeness in the line of Brewerkz Night with ____h's class HAHA. A and me were having all these M&A conversations (hey hey M&A looks really good we can start a fashion house/ conglomerate) and she has perfected the 'Amanda' look, really, and we are now both well on our way to bitchy careers, saying bitchy things simultaneously in the same tone (actually ays i realize mine is alot more bitchy, yours is just more complainey and euf) woah we have no morals and i am becoming incoherent.

4. after hibyes i went to meet tetty and th at ____, which turned out to be nice but boring since nothing funny happed (funny things Always Happen at ____) and they closed early! which is leaving me feeling cheated!

OH OH ACTUALLY MANY A THING HAPPENED AT ____ for one i saw _______ who is __'s ewest __ and woah it's really _____ and ______-up, the minute i saw _______ i had to alert the __ and aysuria who both gave very different responses which were both along the lines of ew! but in a less toned down way for ays. this encounter paved the way for another Rare SMS Conversation Lasting More Than Two SMSes Containing More than OK and Thanks with ______ and __. in the space of like an hour, i felt my sense of community coming back to me which was nice. it was as if i had friends again. yeah but as usual it fizzled into nothingness. but ohh something v bad and complicated happened to __, which kinda leaves me feeling grateful for pulling through and getting over certain people. poor __. argh i dislike _.

speaking of ____, cg23! :( regret and sorrow, i am devoid of basic moral values. HAHA woah what an insider joke which only i think only three people will understand.

wow that was so soporific. i think, i might eat some jam and bread then go towning alone first.

reeeeeech

another head hangs lowly, child is slowly taken

ohh i love the cranberries. at home now, and blogging, since i have an MC for this ridiculous fever which is spreading throughout the whole of, ahem, the area which i am accustomed to inhabiting for much of the week. temperatures range from 37.4 degrees (just now, after taking copious amounts of paracetamol) to 39.4 degrees (yesterday at changi general hospital). hopefully this clears up by tomorrow morning.

in other news, the great singapore sale is now on! and i plan to blow copious amounts of salary on topman! incidentally copious seems to be my new favorite word!

speaking of topman, i have recently purchased another pair of skinny jeans, which (at size 28, oh how slim i am) are much skinnier than the size 30 ones which i bought for prom last year. and here is a to-get list for the GSS!

1. cardigan (both the album with 'lovefool', i think it's called Gran Turismo, and the piece of clothing)

2. at least 3-4 more t-shirts with nice prints. someone should really get me a fashionfastforward membership card. there are really nice ones at zara, but at 39.90 it is like six dollars more ex than topman. actually i should go look at tees from those ah beng shops in marina square and far east and 77 street (which i do have membership for, but all i buy there are magnetic earrings). hopefully there are ridiculous 70% discounts everywhere and not only at robinsons.

3. 1-2 nice, crisp, well-cut formal berms. this sounds strange, but you know those kind of berms which are basically workpants cut short? unlike those floppy affairs which i own right now. one in white (or off white) and another in like dark brown / navy or some other colour. nope NO CARGOES.

4. ties and sunglasses!

i realise, recently that i am slowly morphing into a punkwannabe after faith pointed out at candy empire on sunday that she thought that i was a mu*d at first. teck the prophecy is true! but at least this expands my repertoire of looks.

oh yes must also find nice shirt(s) for social night :D

AHH I WANT LIKE A WHOLE WEEK TO SHOP. and five thousand dollars to spend too. and a new wardrobe. and a new room. AHHHH

reeeeech

it sucks to be here

long weekends should be mandatory if they want us to be sane. the extra night at home Really Helps.

caughted spiderman three yesterday, which was okay. treated lunch to the family at sakura, which was very very very nice. talked to teck heng from 2300 to 0400 at the hong kong cafe, which is a fantabuloustic place.

oh i have run out of things to write. time to continue the novel!

reeeeeech