the kite runner

the first few days of my eighteenth year alive have been ok, except for a couple of people who fucked it up, one for not being there, the other for being there too much. woke up at twelve a.m. on the day itself with dried contacts, took a bath then vacuumed my room of the ants that entered through a hole in the wall from my sisters' room. groundfloor living. went to the gym with th then had dinner with my family, then watched devil wears prada with the BB guys. must say, surprisingly substantial chick flick, nice clothes and cameos galore from several fashion personalities (heidi! michael! donnatella (ok maybe not donnatella). anne hathaway was really pretty, and she looked like liv tyler. chere's sister is supposed to look like liv tyler too, but i've not seen her before.

i don't know why but i've been having this strange unhappy feeling since one and a half days ago. nothing much, just a nagging discontented unhappy tiredness. i wish someone would do somethings and someone else would not do something, just so i know that i exist.

i've just finished the kite runner by khaled hosseini, and must say, it's a really nice book. admittedly some plot twists and character links are rather unrealistic and overly 'look here are echoes from earlier parts of the novel', but still full marks for sheer style, language, clear and unadulterated brutality, detail and emotion. khaled has this subtle but strangely clear language, charting a transition from selfish boyhood to helpless adulthood in twenty-five chapters, using only language as his age markers. there is a shift from the young boy's voice to that of the adult, but all in a reflective, unobtrusive, contemplative mood. very nice. almost as good as brokeback, and almost as bad and haunting. the determined emotion pouring out from his narrative is extremely affecting, and it's still affecting me. maxine and george, i fear i will be distracted from you tonight. they are authors of the lit texts i am supposed to be studying now, by the way.

for you, a thousand times over.

reeeech