number one hundred

it is the hundredth post!

but no celebrations here, since i have a hideous pimple-blister conglomerate growing on, of all places, my upper lip, which makes for a perfect holiday, does it not?

i am feeling seriously antisocial and tired and ughsome right now, which puts me in the mood to not go for the escape thing tomorrow and go for lunch with the le Miroir cast instead since i haven't seen woochiao in eons, and woochiao is treating, and with escape, sometimes too much of a good thing is bad for you. the two stupid 1m long presents are still stuck in my cupboard, so i cannot close the doors, and i am very tempted to burn them in this neglected, irritated, unfulfilled mood of mine. i think i have inherited my father's prelidiction to grow grumpy on festive / important occasions, like birthdays, proms, christmasses and new years, how unfortunate of all things to inherit, but we digress. i just don't think i can handle seeing you right now, so i apologise in advance. i just hate it when i think that i feel that i care for something more than someone else, which makes me feel small and unimportant and stupid and ugh.

i also have the special talent of getting worked up and stressed and emotional about small things which grow into big ones that consume my whole psychological make-up, but i guess it stems from my need to be the centre of attention.

2006 has been rather fun, stressful and very emotionally taxing, and i should stop pretending not to have any emotions or self respect so that i can tell myself and other people that i exist not only to be laughed at, insulted or strung around. so in 2007, i will be moody, mopey, angsty, get caught up with hopeless relationship and whiny just like everyone else so i fit in, and so i can grab some attention, and become a conversation topic all over again. 2003 you are looming, but i digress again. oh well, what a pointless and inconsequential post, but i guess the superstitious part of me wants to get this over and done with before spoiling the new year.

okay then everybody, have a happy new year!

reeeech